MOCK INTERVIEW

this is the worst day in my life.....waaa....
mou...i feel like crying rite now...or at least, i want to punch someone
*i should take taekwando class*
you know ne....today we have mock interview, organized by our faculty...2 days courses.....
hari pertama, kami diajar to become the best candidate....macam2la, which im too lazy to mention*plus i dont have mood rite now*
and today, to apply what we have learned yesterday, we have mock interview...
nak dipendekkan cerita, i become the center of attention.....
every single mistakes i did, they commented in front of others.....i dont mind at all, as i made a mistake, that im not prepared*which is true, and im not proud saying that*
but why everytime i did wrong, comment tu berjela2...orang len, cakap sikit, da abes....
im just saying what i feel, what i think its right, and i dont want to lie, but it seems that lying is the best thing when you have an interview.....i hate to lie, especially in interview, because i know satu hari ia makan diri....
i tried to lie, and somehow aku rasa semua orang taw aku menipu....im not a good liar....
thats why aku tak nak menipu semasa interview....tapi tengokla, aku jer yang kena comment banyak.....at the end, i tried to defend myself by asking some questions about my mistakes, but i dont feel right.....awak rekala cerita, kalau tak ada experience kerja...WTH with that????reka cerita????contohla kalau aku reka cerita, then i get the job, ada keberkatan tak dalam pekerjaan tue????im starting with a lie, someday it will become habit....and i dont want that.....
so many things that i want to say, but i feel too lazy to write....senang cerita, LUPAKAN AJER!!!

best kowt jadi orang yang tader perasaan, kena pape, wat tataw....aku nak wat tataw....i dunno if i can do that.....and i know what bother me the most, what people think about me after this....i know it silly, but that's me, always thinking what if people think me that way, this way....im trying to change that, BUT ITS HARD.....kadang2 aku pk, kenapa kena takut dengan tanggapan negatif orang bila kita rasa kita betul....tapi....sebenarnya aku pown tataw mana betul mana salah....

based on comments from evaluation form, dorang tulis dress ok, speaks well, shows confident, speak with calm to present ideas, and i should do homework on company.....yup, the last comment...tue silap besar aku, tak ready sal company yang aku nak, sebab aku completely lupa nak cari...and i admit that....tapi based on comment yang ditulis, somehow ia tak meyakinkan aku, tapi buat aku pk, why dont they state "you are rambling too much, your ideas are not convincing" like that....sebab yang aku ingat, aku cakap mengarut masa interview.....i dont know what i said....sepatutnya begitu....ahhh....waktu tue, rasa nak bangun and bla jer...seriously...tapi aku still buat slamber, walau dalam hati tuhan jer tahu.....

entahla... i dont know what should i do kalau betul2 jadi in real life....should i lie????or should i be honest.....i know my weaknesses, i cannot manipulate words, i am not creative to give ideas that convince the interviewer....i should learn more....dou suru????what should i do????

skarang da lega sikit sebab aku terus tepon mama, citer....i need someone to listen to me....eventhough masa tue mama tengah shopping....huhu...thanks ma, for listening to me....*now i feel like crying* ia pengajaran yang baik untuk aku, untuk tak pandang rendah pada interview.....ya......this is a good experience for me....

p/s:i wanna go home!!!!